I really really REALLY am hoping that this one Cikgu won't burst my bubbles. I'm quite in a miserable state. There's a huge lump of guilt building up more and more within me. I felt super guilty to my scale, =o=/ he has done nothing wrong and for worse, he has got no idea on whatthefuck is going on. Everything is my fault, I was the one who had been super bitchy in finding out information about his classmates & him. :/ Okay, I was just helping my friends out, they had been extremely curious, so I dug in! @.@" heeeisy.

Well uh, to make it clear, I don't fancy him THAT much. It's my eyes, they fancy him too much and won't let me stop stalking. I shouldn't have exposed myself and my scale to this Cikgu. I thought she had completely forgotten about me digging out stuffs from her. It was last week if I'm not mistaken, she teased me that her next class would be my scale's. I was kinda BLURR and grinned it off, it took me hours to digest her teases in and YES, she remembers still.

And then URGH, yesterday during her periods, my scale passed by my class. My eyes are inhumanly sensitive to moving subjects, so I looked outside and caught my scale looking directly into my direction. Ninis gave me THAT look, so I grinned at her and stabbed my lashes, superGEDIT fuckthewhat, till I realized that Cikgu was looking at me and she had THAT cynical smile and her eyes followed my scale's figure till he disappeared from the sight. It was like WHOAH! I almost died right on the spot! She mumbled something like she has finally found out who's the guy of mine. Like wtf kay. =.=", he's not mine, we're not together, and for God's sake he probably doesn't even know my name!

AWHH. I'm feeling nervous for tomorrow. You know how fast rumors and gossips spread in that freaking staffroom. m(_ _)m. In my not-so-humble opinion, teachers should stop butting in students' personal affairs. Aren't you guys have better things to do?? rather then pissing us off with digging out about our affairs, as though they never have one when they were at our age! I would be DEEPLY offended, pissed off and humiliated if this thing spread allover around. If my scale ever found out about this, I'll be perfectly dead, SRSLY. On top of all, we're not together, fullstop.

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