How should I say this, I've been slacking a lot, from living my life. :\ yeah, that's it. Since I finished with my form 4 finals, I haven't been doing so great. There are a lot of thing I should be doing instead of fangirling in here and sticking my nose to Japanese drama. Aihh. This is complicated. The desire of cleaning up all the mess I have done and the desire to not doing so. I should take a break and try to breath. Breathe. Breathe. (: If I try to look back, than I could see myself, waking up from sleep, breakfast, watch telly, read novels, online, read novels, eat, online, off to bed. 8| What a waste of time, no? I shall reduce some of it and try to work on my to-do-list. But damn, procrastinating is just so addictive. Once you tasted it, it's hard to gain your consciousness back. Life is like that, isn't it?

Sometimes life is hard. I know, I know & I know. I should face my life, not hiding in here, running away from all my problems. My biggest problem right now is ; I haven't study for my SPM. And it scares me. When I tell my girls about my worries, they would wave it off. Are they laughing at me? Are you guys? :| Or just perhaps I'm being too paranoid about my future. Well yeah, lacks of look doesn't do well with lacks of brain, right? I have problem with my confidence, that's it, my grades keep my confidence bold and tall. And shit, I don't want to disappoint my parent. I'm their only hope. It's not easy being the only child in the family. I have to enjoy all the sweetness and swallow the pain all by myself. Sometimes it's like I really have no one to talk to. Talking to mom isn't that easy. There's lot of thing I can't share with her. Although I know she would always be there for me, but I just can't.

Wow. This post doesn't sound like me. But yeah, this is what I've been trying to write. All the ideas--oh well,pathetic ideas-- for blogging always float in my mind but when I open the posting page, pfft! they vanish at sudden. I'll keep this post to keep myself awake.

One thing for sure ; stay positive. I'm MISS-I-CAN-DO-IT!